the changes are shifting outside the words

no more i love yous, the language is leaving me in silence"

tonight i stood on tired feet while a 99 year old woman trembled into the bar where i pull two shifts a week. can you imagine, me, a bartender? ;) but she staggered in and spoke lucidly, almost uncanny after living through the long span from 1908 til now. the sheer force of existence to make it that long. i could fucking die just thinking about it. but there she sat, with her wild, uncombed white hair. she had been sitting in a very hot car honking to get attention for help to open the heavy door-- i tell you, the imagination you have to maintain to see how people have to get by. try it on! sometimes she wandered, mostly she was lucid and sat drinking a coke and crunching on a small bag of potato chips with no teeth. could lift you into a spiritual change just from watching if youre paying attention.

how lucky can one person get? well, let's see:
i got gifted with some hand me downs from the daughter of the folks im renting a place from, i wore them today.
tonight there was a shooting star somewhere to the right of the moon which is full with a bright planet on either side. i saw it, i think it was for me. i hope the same for you.