cause i dont think that they'd understand
everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am"
great song by goo goos.
its a rosicrucianism to say love will build the bridge. also just makes good sense.
i spent a lot of years putting myself back in a whole piece. i dont know if everybody feels that way over time, but i felt like i had serious work to do to put my thinking back into my own head and my feelings connected back into my own source. i always felt like my generation was kind of an invisible generation on the world stage, famous folk notwithstanding. like we just hadnt yet said what we had to say. but i notice that a lot of work has gotten done in the meantime. certain people i have come across years later and found that theyve been busy too.
i spent a lot of time in my twenties just getting to know how to get along in the world, i mean really get along--so i wasnt panicked and freaked out by everything. i felt like i dropped out of circulation and got on with essential work of getting a hold on my understandings. it was fucking terrifying. and really hard work. never been sure how to include that on a resume:
Skill Set:
*gets her shit together well
*manages to not freak on stuff
*handles scary life realities
*totally excellent @ transformation
i do think everything is made to be broken, but esp us, but like, broken open, like kahlil gibran: your pain is the breaking of the shell which encloses your understanding. amazing to understand a couple things. a great relief to be still getting to know. and if youve ever seen a serious summer storm building, where the sky takes an hour to change from bright to a weird green and black and the whole atmosphere changes and wind and humidity and thunder and lightening--its as close an external representation of my inner life as ive ever found. and very humbling to sit quietly through.
dang danang nang nang.
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